Category Archives: Sick of being black

these journal entries might be seen as diary conversations and daily observations collected on the page, upon being untangled in the mind. These explore the difficulties in living experienced by the Gifted Black, whether physical, psychological, or other dimensions.

There Is No Black (Remember Sleeping)

For the longest time we have been “running off our mouths” referring to non-white peoples by a host of derogatory “insensitive” names, and yet, much to our astonishment, they have “engaged” with us and bothered to respond, many times even … Continue reading

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Getting Started In Life

“…that any wage I asked of life, life would have willingly paid” John Lennon has been attributed with saying that “life is what happens to you whilst you busy making plans” and for most of us, we might just agree. … Continue reading

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Move Into The Mainstream

Our circumstance is despicable. We are urged to move away from home as soon as possible and get money, irrespective of the morbid levels of illiteracy and general incompetence of later efforts to deal with worldly affairs. These people are … Continue reading

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New Beginnings

It was the ideas of audioanarchy that grabbed us, all those years ago. It was the point at which the conflicts converged, as we were provided with a framework to make sense of the whiteness around. Rather speculatively, and with … Continue reading

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Malone At The Crossroads (III)

At the time, we utilised three key search engines: lycos, dogpile and altavista. yet again, football movies were the primary objective with other things soon becoming alternative goals. Yes, we managed to capture clips on fighting, football, rap battles and … Continue reading

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Malone At The Crossroads (II)

“when you leave home sometimes you really forget who you are… you forget the values that they teach you” At that time, having parted from our formidable master,, and having settled in with the future, we were still trying to … Continue reading

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Malone At The CrossRoads

It was about six years ago that this madness began. It was some time in 2008, that the early warnings signs were there.By this “it”, we are referring to the breakdown and the fallout which lead to a rapid detachment … Continue reading

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I depart now, as these “breakdowns” (more accurately terms “disintegrations”) are so painful and not something to be endured. It is only fortunate that today I managed to write this as usually I withdraw, retreat and disengage. I just escape … Continue reading

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We cannot do anything with these people unless something dramatic happens, but this cannot happen because they are blocked from grace. That is the GRACE which realises that one does not have all the answers. The grace which discerns that … Continue reading

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I often ask why black people would endorse a notion of mental illness when logically, historically, it was this abstract apparatus which was used to exploit them and keep them subjugated. Historically, the mentally ill person was excluded from the … Continue reading

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